[creepy]

as i mentioned yesterday abt the lecturer. okay this is super freaky. today lesson was at 3 as usual. had 4 hours break cos IDEAs was apparently canceled. not that thats a bad thing. who doesnt love that their class is cancelled huh. haha. anyways,i forgot to mention that this lecturer apparently always looks at my direction or rather at me during lesson time. which i find disarming. he is soft spoken and has luscious lips. wahaha. fuck i sound like a fanatic. eee! ok getting on. today was presentation day for some groups. thank god mine is next week. and we havent even done anything yet!! damn. so he was sitting on a seat thats a row infront of mine which is okay. i was freaking cold and nervous i was almost choking. so anyways after the first group presented and everyone has taken a shot at asking questions(read:bombarding) to the group-this was done to accumulate marks not purely out of choice,the lecturer suddenly came around and sat next to me. i was going WTF?! but kept cool. haha. i might just die cos of all the things i keep inside. apparently he wanted to ask me the name of my classmate(raymond lum yun hoe) . like what the hell i know. couldnt he just ask raymond himself. haha. before i get to spit out raymond's name,raymond came bounding towards us like the kaypo kid he is. haha. lucky for me. after that the lecturer moved off. haha. the presentation continued and more bombarding of questions. the lecturer kept glancing back though. eee. but abit nice to know that someone actually wants a second glance of me. haha. yes i am deprived of attention. he is utterly hot though. no denying that. the thought of him makes me nervous and when i try to drown it,my stomach will have this weird feeling and i will feel like shitting. sigh.
oh but thats not the end of the drama which enfolded today. a group member who conveniently missed today's lessons is on a warpath cos she thinks that we do not know how to compromise when actually the problem lies in her. this has happened before. i think i posted something similar previously a few months ago. and i can safely tell u,when another group member called twice to tell me abt this on the mrt nonetheless ,i have never in my life been angry till my heart and head is thumping i cant breathe and lost my apetite. i guess lust and anger doesnt mix well huh. bleah. i didnt know what made me do it but i actually told all this to my mom. i'm usually apprehensive abt letting my mom know abt what happens in my life. she got wound up and told me that girl is a bitch and that i should just continue what i'm supposed to do. wow. that went well. haha. now i'm having something nagging at me at the back of my head. crap.
my xena the warrior princess dvds have yet to arrive. i found out that due to the way it was shipped,it will take around 4-6 weeks to actually reach here. thats disappointing. hah. i'm still looking forward to it though. hmm. this adds to the stress and anger. and to some extent lust. wahaha. i realise i'm using the word lust very loosely. maybe i've been reading too many love novels with sexual content for my own good. sigh.
ok enough of my ranting for today. it feels good to let out abit of everything here. listening to marcell's jangan pernah berubah. smooth man. so relaxing and sad and sweet at the same time. so i hope u guys have a good weekend. i know i'll have a hell of a weekend thats for sure. take care and good night.