[don't know why]

I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHER! WHY I EVEN GIVE A SHIT. I don't know why I put myself in so much misery. Why did I even think that the reward will be worth the pain. Why I never considered the fact that the pain would be so unbearable without the reward. Time and again this has happened to me. Why can't I get it into my thick skull?! This is unfair to me, unjust, its stupid!
I get it now. Oh, So you're allowed to not reply when somebody sms-es. But when you sms we are obliged to reply?! Is that it? Don't you know how stupid that is?! Maybe ko lupa bahawa aku juga manusia. Yang punya mata, telinga, hati dan perasaan.
This is just so fucked up la. I don't deserve this pain. You don't deserve my pain. This is one of the reasons why I regret ever knowing you. It would have saved me ALOT of pain and misery. I'm done with this.

ARGH, I NEED A VACATION. Too bad I'm not getting one.