[because of you]
"The band around Tabi's ring finger (first pic) is a bittersweet sight. I think(wish) he will be the type to almost always wear his wedding band. Probably JUST his wedding band and forego the big gaudy rings he's really been into as of late. She's a ridiculously lucky girl- that future Mrs. Choi Seunghyun."
This comment.. Totally made me tear up and feel like ripping out my heart only because I've thought of the exact same thing from the very first moment that I was hooked, only I wasn't able to quite eloquently phrase it. The only thing keeping me sane is the happy-go-lucky song, that is 좋은 날, that just happened to be playing while I was reading this. I just really want to die right now. Cannot stop wishing that he could someday be mine and only mine. I know I'm not that lucky. I feel sick right now.
I guess its a great thing that there's tumblr, facebook, livejournal, wordpress and all those other blog platforms so people no longer use/check blogger. It is also good that nobody actually reads my blog so chances of anybody finding out what I just wrote in this entry is pretty slim which I am insanely happy for. I'm tired of talking to people who probably couldn't care less what I thought/felt and worrying whether I'm talking too much about myself but having to listen to them because I thought that's what we do. We share. In the end, in my hour of insanity, I get slapped in the face by someone whom I least expected to. Someone who I thought would know how I was feeling. All those times.. all those times.. I NEVER ONCE said that I won't entertain her whining and paranoidness! NEVER! And here she went saying she won't stand my being paranoid! Well, that does it. Things will no longer be what it was. I will be detached from now on. I promise. Whatever I need to say, I will say it here. The hermit is back. We don't need to tell people who won't listen to us, don't we? I've survived this way for the past 20 years. What difference would it make?
Dear blog, I'm sorry for leaving you hanging for the past few years. Your loyalty will never be forgotten. I will come back often to feed you. Please wait for me. I love you.
This comment.. Totally made me tear up and feel like ripping out my heart only because I've thought of the exact same thing from the very first moment that I was hooked, only I wasn't able to quite eloquently phrase it. The only thing keeping me sane is the happy-go-lucky song, that is 좋은 날, that just happened to be playing while I was reading this. I just really want to die right now. Cannot stop wishing that he could someday be mine and only mine. I know I'm not that lucky. I feel sick right now.
I guess its a great thing that there's tumblr, facebook, livejournal, wordpress and all those other blog platforms so people no longer use/check blogger. It is also good that nobody actually reads my blog so chances of anybody finding out what I just wrote in this entry is pretty slim which I am insanely happy for. I'm tired of talking to people who probably couldn't care less what I thought/felt and worrying whether I'm talking too much about myself but having to listen to them because I thought that's what we do. We share. In the end, in my hour of insanity, I get slapped in the face by someone whom I least expected to. Someone who I thought would know how I was feeling. All those times.. all those times.. I NEVER ONCE said that I won't entertain her whining and paranoidness! NEVER! And here she went saying she won't stand my being paranoid! Well, that does it. Things will no longer be what it was. I will be detached from now on. I promise. Whatever I need to say, I will say it here. The hermit is back. We don't need to tell people who won't listen to us, don't we? I've survived this way for the past 20 years. What difference would it make?
Dear blog, I'm sorry for leaving you hanging for the past few years. Your loyalty will never be forgotten. I will come back often to feed you. Please wait for me. I love you.
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