[holidays are here]

thank god its friday. yeah i know. but somehow it doesnt seem right to me. dont know why exactly. yesterday's presentation went crappy. the lecturer says that the presentation went quite smoothly but the QnA part was quite unconvincing. the guys were asking questions which were out of the issue that we're presenting for gods sake! our issue was abortion:pro-life/pro-choice. READ:WE WERE TALKING ABOUT NOT AGREEING ON ABORTION!!! well apparently the guys didnt understand that and kept asking questions about ADOPTION. the lecturer was probably eluded too cos he too asked us about adoption. *notice that i'm not actually blaming him. i wonder why? *rolls eyes*. so in the end we couldn't answer most of the questions. totally demoralising. i was really pissed off by the way the questions were posed to my group so i took revenge on the next group. i was asking so many questions. i cant take it sia. i kept asking until the lecturer,whose name is kenneth ong keng wee(finally i tell u i know), said can u all not get to personal over this. haha. that was great. it felt good man. after all the nervous shit i went through i at least deserve to feel triumphant. i can seriously tell u that i listened to khyalan by black dog bone in the toilet while i was shitting to actually calm my nerves. it was that bad.
after that i met fazli and liyana at fc3 and we headed to the dover mrt station. there i saw kenneth ong or should i say mr ong(god that name reminds me of sec sch principle) and he doesnt look happy. sigh. it somehow made me feel bad. i dont know why though. i was worried. i'm still worrying about till this very second. i dont feel that its the right time for a holiday cos i dont know why he's probably upset. i'm not as happy as i should be. damn it all. i still have a crush on him. wtf. its supposed to wear off. fuck this is difficult. i cant believe it. i will actually miss going back to school for the next 3 weeks just cos i wont be able to see him. shit. ok going on with the story,he apparently lives in pasir ris and he claims its near to PRCS! O.O!!! haha! anyways,i had to have promised liyana and fazli that i'd follow them to vivo city on that bloody day. i made the decision on the day before. never did i expect that i would have had the chance to maybe go home with him(fat chance! but who cares!). hahah. damn i sound psychotic. so u can say i wasnt in the mood to go around a mall that is new and has a spectacular view even when it was raining. i hurried them home. haha. sorry guys. u know i've been thinking about what anisah tagged awhile back. she tagged that theres a possibility that he's been reading my blog and i happen to be gushing about him in here like a psychotic maniac. somehow i dont think that he would though we had to comment on an article on a blog and to post that comment we needed to log in to our respective accounts and apparently people can see our profiles from there and then get the links to our blogs. disturbing as hell sia. well if he has been reading my blog i have but one thing to say to him. I AM TERRIBLY SORRY MR ONG/KENNETH. I HAD A CRUSH ON YOU AND I'M STILL CRUSHING ON YOU. I'LL LET YOU ALL KNOW WHEN THE CRUSH HAS WORN OFF. till then,this is driving me absolutely nuts. to think that i would probably have him popping up in my thoughts at anytime of the day and also during when i'm supposed to be on a holiday and enjoying myself is really alarming.
eh u know i didnt realise that siti nurhaliza sang the song aku cinta padamu. wait i didnt even know the song was called as such until my friend ,who i think is actually obsessed with siti but would not admit to it,told me. so now i dug up the vcd of siti nurhaliza which my mom got since i dont know when and watching the part where she sings it. somehow i think its too pitchy for my liking but the song is absolutely divine. heres the lyrics to the song:
AKU CINTA PADAMU-SITI NURHALIZA
Andainya engkau ku miliki
Terdahulu sebelumnya
Andai ku curah rasa hati
Mungkin kini ku tenang di samping mu
Belum puas ku menikmati
Kesan kasih sayang kau terpaksa pergi
Ingin ku terus dicintai
Walau bisikanmu azimat berduri
( 1 )Bila cinta berbungaJadi airmata di jariku
( 2 )Betapa ku cinta pada mu
Katakanlah kau cinta padaku
Sematkanlah ku di hati mu
Walau di mana berada
Ingat ku dalam doa mu
Hiasilah hati
Dengan cinta suci
Selamanya
( ulang 1, 2 )
( 3 )
Gemerlapkan jiwa
Semikanlah cinta
Semoga kau dan aku
Akhirnya bersama
Akukan menunggu
Walaupun seribu tahun lagi
( ulang 3, 2, 3 )

with that i end this entry. thank you for reading. please feel free to tag. take care. happy holidays!