[pretend this was typed on the 2nd]
Today * kinda made efforts to talk to me. =D Yes, I get happy easily. There were a few instances when * just stood and stared at me for God knows what reason. OMG a thought just came to mind! Maybe * was jealous that Huiling was all over me so * went to Jannah. Hmmm. HAHA! OMG! Okay sorry got side tracked. Let's continue.
Today * asked me to empty the elephante twice. I was only too glad to help. The poor thing must be so overworked. My heart hurts seeing * doing all that. There was once when me, Clovis and Huiling were emptying the elephante but the top of the drawers were piled with appointment passports, so we didn't have space to separate the A from the P. We just put everything together. Then * came and checked and asked whether we separated them. I said "umm no?". * just smiled and said "Fuck you!". Huiling laughed at me. I told * that * never told us to separate them. * said that it was common sense. I said sorry and asked whether I can do anything about it. So we separated them. After that, I think.. We can only be friends. Sad.
After lunch, me and Huiling just came up the stairs and Huiling grabbed my hand and pointed to the woman waiting for the lift and said "look at her legs! so thin!". I couldn't concentrate because *, azri and another guy were standing there just staring at us. Then I just said "okay, yes. Thank you." and walked past them, and through the door. Embarrassing. -.-
Today wasn't really good. Did runner with Firdaus for a while when * approached Firdaus and told one of us to come in. I thought.. Since Firdaus is so much better as runner, I might as well go in. When I left, he said "Dia suka kau tak?" to which I showed him the middle finger but my heart was fluttering like hell and I was grinning like shit. I went in and said "yes boss, I have come to sacrifice my life." * just chuckled. I WILL MAKE * LAUGH ON MY OWN CREDIT IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO! * did laugh to *self when * did weird stuff like accidentally slamming the basket too hard or scaring *self while filing passports. I find * so cute sometimes, I don't even know why. I know * is really tired. The amount of things * does scares me. So many people depend on * to get their passports from wherever the hell they may be. I feel kinda proud to be working with *. LOL! * always smiles and laughs, though not with me, but * is ALWAYS finding, carrying, pushing, going up and down, in and out, all I wanna do is pull * to me, hug * and whisper that its okay. That I'll be there to help whenever the need arises. But I can't do that, obviously. It breaks my heart seeing * do all that the whole day and then still having to file and shift the passports at the end of the day. I wish I knew what to do to help but I don't. I could only shift and transfer the passports. I don't want to openly offer help because that won't go down well with the others. But I was seriously just dying inside just watching * doing all that. I can see * eyes were already tired and * was barely standing straight. I should've asked if * could manage before leaving like that. I should have done something. God, no wonder * was kinda pissed the next day.
But then again, it could be that * saw me, sarah and kak jan coming out from the mrt station. I glanced when sarah mentioned * but I looked at my phone so I can remain in neutral position since Sarah seems to be having problems with *. Truth be told, I just wanted to run to * and hug * to death. I miss every second that * is not in my sight. I should have just smiled or waved or something. [I still remember waving to * the other day and when * waved back, I felt like my heart was going to burst from happiness] Ugh. I HATE myself right now. You know ah.. My heart skips a beat and my tummy has butterflies when I see * appear. HAHA! I'm sick. This is probably the fastest I've gotten over that woman after she abandoned me for her gf.. AGAIN. Its fine. Whatever.
For now, all I wanna do is go to work and see *. I don't care if I can only stare at * back with longing knowing full well that I'll never have *. Plus now that I know * is kinda involved with another.. Sigh. Sad huh? * seems so happy nowadays. I should just stop falling for people who are attached. I wanted to think that it was because of me that * is happy. But after what Sarah told me, my hopes were dashed. I don't know what I was expecting ah but I don't want to lose another crush to someone else. I'm sick of not getting who I want. Okay I get it that God is waiting to give me someone I need, but for now, its kind of painful. /deep breaths/ I'll just be happy about coming to work, destroying my limbs and getting scolded just so I can see * every day for 11 hours. Sucks knowing that * doesn't work on Saturdays. I miss *. I always wish *'ll come back soon so I can just see *. We don't even have to talk. Just.. Let me see you. That's all I want. Anything else is a bonus.
OH! Today was also filled with Abang Hafiz! He is a super cute fella! Married, but oh so cute! He's always going "HI SHIKIN!" or "Hi Shikinnn..". To which I'd smile insanely bright and sincere since I genuinely like him. He's like the nicest male counter staff EVER! Anyways, today he entered the tracer room with the elephante while I was searching the computer for passport info. * was emptying the elephante and he saw me! He immediately said "HI SHIKIN!" to which i just smiled widely and waved because I haven't decided on what to call him yet. I continued searching when he exclaimed "Jangan nak action main computer la Shikin! Masuk facebook!". I was like "HAH?! Facebook eh?!" and proceeded to check whether there was internet connection. Couldn't figure it out so I just continued searching. Then outside I kept seeing him and his tiny self strutting around with his SECURITY uniform. I miss him. He hasn't been doing counter duty. Apparently he's been at perso. He's just too adorable ah. OMG.
Okay that's all for tonight. its 1215am and I've got work tomorrow. AMIRA IF YOU'RE READING THIS, DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING CAN OR NOT?! I PAISEH! HAHAHAHA! Anyways Jae, I miss you too okay? HAHA! Bye, kids.
Today * asked me to empty the elephante twice. I was only too glad to help. The poor thing must be so overworked. My heart hurts seeing * doing all that. There was once when me, Clovis and Huiling were emptying the elephante but the top of the drawers were piled with appointment passports, so we didn't have space to separate the A from the P. We just put everything together. Then * came and checked and asked whether we separated them. I said "umm no?". * just smiled and said "Fuck you!". Huiling laughed at me. I told * that * never told us to separate them. * said that it was common sense. I said sorry and asked whether I can do anything about it. So we separated them. After that, I think.. We can only be friends. Sad.
After lunch, me and Huiling just came up the stairs and Huiling grabbed my hand and pointed to the woman waiting for the lift and said "look at her legs! so thin!". I couldn't concentrate because *, azri and another guy were standing there just staring at us. Then I just said "okay, yes. Thank you." and walked past them, and through the door. Embarrassing. -.-
Today wasn't really good. Did runner with Firdaus for a while when * approached Firdaus and told one of us to come in. I thought.. Since Firdaus is so much better as runner, I might as well go in. When I left, he said "Dia suka kau tak?" to which I showed him the middle finger but my heart was fluttering like hell and I was grinning like shit. I went in and said "yes boss, I have come to sacrifice my life." * just chuckled. I WILL MAKE * LAUGH ON MY OWN CREDIT IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO! * did laugh to *self when * did weird stuff like accidentally slamming the basket too hard or scaring *self while filing passports. I find * so cute sometimes, I don't even know why. I know * is really tired. The amount of things * does scares me. So many people depend on * to get their passports from wherever the hell they may be. I feel kinda proud to be working with *. LOL! * always smiles and laughs, though not with me, but * is ALWAYS finding, carrying, pushing, going up and down, in and out, all I wanna do is pull * to me, hug * and whisper that its okay. That I'll be there to help whenever the need arises. But I can't do that, obviously. It breaks my heart seeing * do all that the whole day and then still having to file and shift the passports at the end of the day. I wish I knew what to do to help but I don't. I could only shift and transfer the passports. I don't want to openly offer help because that won't go down well with the others. But I was seriously just dying inside just watching * doing all that. I can see * eyes were already tired and * was barely standing straight. I should've asked if * could manage before leaving like that. I should have done something. God, no wonder * was kinda pissed the next day.
But then again, it could be that * saw me, sarah and kak jan coming out from the mrt station. I glanced when sarah mentioned * but I looked at my phone so I can remain in neutral position since Sarah seems to be having problems with *. Truth be told, I just wanted to run to * and hug * to death. I miss every second that * is not in my sight. I should have just smiled or waved or something. [I still remember waving to * the other day and when * waved back, I felt like my heart was going to burst from happiness] Ugh. I HATE myself right now. You know ah.. My heart skips a beat and my tummy has butterflies when I see * appear. HAHA! I'm sick. This is probably the fastest I've gotten over that woman after she abandoned me for her gf.. AGAIN. Its fine. Whatever.
For now, all I wanna do is go to work and see *. I don't care if I can only stare at * back with longing knowing full well that I'll never have *. Plus now that I know * is kinda involved with another.. Sigh. Sad huh? * seems so happy nowadays. I should just stop falling for people who are attached. I wanted to think that it was because of me that * is happy. But after what Sarah told me, my hopes were dashed. I don't know what I was expecting ah but I don't want to lose another crush to someone else. I'm sick of not getting who I want. Okay I get it that God is waiting to give me someone I need, but for now, its kind of painful. /deep breaths/ I'll just be happy about coming to work, destroying my limbs and getting scolded just so I can see * every day for 11 hours. Sucks knowing that * doesn't work on Saturdays. I miss *. I always wish *'ll come back soon so I can just see *. We don't even have to talk. Just.. Let me see you. That's all I want. Anything else is a bonus.
OH! Today was also filled with Abang Hafiz! He is a super cute fella! Married, but oh so cute! He's always going "HI SHIKIN!" or "Hi Shikinnn..". To which I'd smile insanely bright and sincere since I genuinely like him. He's like the nicest male counter staff EVER! Anyways, today he entered the tracer room with the elephante while I was searching the computer for passport info. * was emptying the elephante and he saw me! He immediately said "HI SHIKIN!" to which i just smiled widely and waved because I haven't decided on what to call him yet. I continued searching when he exclaimed "Jangan nak action main computer la Shikin! Masuk facebook!". I was like "HAH?! Facebook eh?!" and proceeded to check whether there was internet connection. Couldn't figure it out so I just continued searching. Then outside I kept seeing him and his tiny self strutting around with his SECURITY uniform. I miss him. He hasn't been doing counter duty. Apparently he's been at perso. He's just too adorable ah. OMG.
Okay that's all for tonight. its 1215am and I've got work tomorrow. AMIRA IF YOU'RE READING THIS, DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING CAN OR NOT?! I PAISEH! HAHAHAHA! Anyways Jae, I miss you too okay? HAHA! Bye, kids.
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