[quickie]

well its now the 3rd day of hari raya. nice but i'm still in the fasting mode. haha. oh well. first day of raya was okay i guess. visited the usual 3 houses. got some money then went home. tired like what. the next day got school but skipped it only to go for the bowling inferno tournament. we lost. 626 points. not bad for a first tournament though. i played like shit. fazli looked disappointed. sorry dude. i wasnt playing my best. will try better next time if there is ever a next time.
this week super tiring. i've been sleeping super late for two nights in a row. its driving me insane. my classmate says my eyebags are huge. oh well. anyways,i completed the full 30 days of fasting. super cool la. no need to pay back. i'm actually in my 2nd day of puasa enam but unfortunately its that time of the month. darn. sigh. so no more fasting tomorrow then. good news for the girls at school.
on a lighter note,i finally ordered my xena dvd on ebay from a guy in the US. its been almost 2 weeks now. hopefully it'll reach singapore soon in good condition. also hope that everything goes smoothly. i cant wait for its arrival.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL THE MUSLIM PEOPLE OUT THERE. ESPECIALLY TO LAILA WHO IS IN FINLAND NOW. GOD BLESS YOU GUYS. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN EH. HAHA.

[sheesh]

its been awhile since i last updated. haha. been busy i guess. its the fasting month. in fact its already the 12th day now. quite fast huh. school has been a drag. everyday i feel like skipping school. i always have to drag myself up and go to school. when i get back i'll be so tired i could sleep the whole day. i cant take it anymore. sigh. i failed my PEEE btw. 40/100. it sucks. the module is tough. i cant understand it. its like physics but harder. sheesh.
times have been tough.

• whats the point of being a daughter to parents who dont believe me
• whats the point of being a sister to siblings who wouldnt respect me as an elder
• whats the point of being a niece to an aunt who thinks i'm always using her for money
• whats the point of being a niece to an aunt who thinks i'm an ugly creature
• whats the point of being a friend to friends who uses me
• whats the point of missing someone who probably doesnt even miss u
• whats the point of having a crush on someone who i know i'll never have and is dead

i dont know anything anymore. i'm just too tired for anything right now. hopefully things will get better for me.

well i havnt gotten the xena dvd yet. i'm hoping to get it soon since i've collected enough money. anyways,i'm in the process of finding this vcd at home. its called 'a simple wish'. my mom bought it before but i cant seem to find it anywhere at home. drat. i want to watch it. anyways,heres a picture of it.

haha. its a funny show.

anyways,did anyone catch the stories of love show on channel 5 on tuesday? about the spoilt kid and the poor grandfather? so sad sia the story. i actually shed tears. of course it was after some shit happened la. but seriously sia. damn touching. i hate the feeling of being weak. i hate it that i let my brothers step all over me and not being able to do anything about it. i hate the way they treat me as inferior and expect me to always give in to them when they wont do the same for me. i hate that when i say or do something wrong they will get angry and yet when they do the same to me i have to be okay with it. i hate it i hate it i hate it. raaa..! i think i need a hug. bleah. i know i'll never get one. so heck.

ok i guess i'll end here. i'll update when i've got something to say. see ya guys around. to all the muslims out there selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan dan selamat berbuka! take care all.