[kuantan trip]

some pictures from the kuantan trip. a proper update will be in soon.

[sleepy day]

today i couldnt wake up enough to go for driving lessons. my eyes felt swollen,although they werent,the whole time. the only thing i know is that i crapped the lesson. i did so many mistakes, i dont have the mood to even talk. oh well.

so after that the aunt took us to watch Kungfu Panda. Brilliantly funny movie it was! we were laughing the whole time. there was even a part where the whole hall was laughing so loudly. haha. Jack Black rocks. not forgetting the rest of the voice actors. awesome awesome. really funny stuff and a good try at being inspirational. i would so go watch it for a second time. it was that good. haha.

ok so the movie lightened up my mood considerably. also the fact that i actually started doing my DSP past year papers. so that kinda decreased the guilt factor. haha. now i'm feeling light, as though a heavy burden has been lifted. i'm sitting here alone in the living/dining room "studying" and scaring myself with the apparent darkness surrounding me. theres nobody to talk to online and i'm bored. lets see if there are random pictures for me to slap into this entry. ah i've got some friendship thingies.. and so i'll end here for tonight. bored. and some asshole is smoking downstairs. fuck nut.

[paint]

check it out! i did this myself using paint. amira taught me how to do it just now when we were suppose to be studying. of course we didnt la. i hadnt the mood so i just messed around with her laptop. she has to remember to send me those inspirational stuff she has, stuffed in there. ah well. i'm scanning my laptop now because when i wanted to open the internet explorer page just now some stupid error message came out non stop. some cicerowin whatever shit.


now i dont really know what to say ah. except that progress has been good on the "lets be normal" plan. soi havnt been thinking as much about said ihminen. so i am immensely happy. haha. been playing badminton with sly this past 2 weeks. awesome workout la to say the least. that sly doesnt know how to give me a chance. keep giving me drop shots and/or side shuttles. i was running like a maniac. its fun though.


yesterday when we were half-way playing and talking about random topics, syaza came strolling by with her gf. apparently she was sending her home. unexpectedly, she came and join us after that. haha! we talked for a bit. it was kinda nice. she's cute and funny to talk to. haha. wth. the answers and comments she gives are all so selamba type. so its entertaining in a way. but i was too busy chasing after the shuttle so i was red faced the whole time. haha.

anyways, this was a picture my brother took of me and well the other brothers during the picnic we had with the brunei relatives before they went back. mom only planned for us to stay till the afternoon but we ended up staying till it was dark. luckily Cik Din and Cik Rohanah are really nice and generous people and offered to send me and the bro home while the rest took a cab.


my face looks kind of evil here eh. the place looks freaky and we all look abit messed up. haha. oh well. thats my brothers. they are the death of me. haha.






ok so this was taken on a driving lesson when the instructor had to go to a doctor to pick up his medication or something for his eye. so we were parked in some carpark and i was bored waiting. so an idea came to mind. besides, i've always wanted to take a picture of myself,eventhough i'm in no way a photogenic person, in a car or driving one. so yeah the opportunity presented itself and i took it. its cool i guess. i've had a few more after this but havnt transferred it into the laptop as yet. soon i guess. yesterday's driving was probably the best i've ever driven. haha. i was/am super happy la. i hope everything turns out alright for my tp. haha! notice i've never stated anything regarding my freaking MSTs. shit. its in 2 weeks and i'm going to kuantan next week. the worst part is i havnt studied a single thing. yeah i know. i'm screwed. wtf la.

ok now my legs are itching due to mosquito bites so i'm going off now. thanks for reading. take care. have a nice holidays. to all SP students, study smart for MSTs and all the best! to cat face: DON'T READ ANYTHING YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO! haha. i'm kidding. thanks for linking and make sure you tag! assalammualaikum.

[hah!]

wtf. ok i was expecting the question but somehow it seemed unexpected. haha. oh well. i think i answered it with grace and humility. i am not going to be disclosing the person who asked the qn or even the qn due to uhm... i dont know. lol. anyways, i am bored and i'm supposed to be doing some research on my fyp but knowing me, i'm typing this entry, mulling over what i answered just now and trying to get myself to do the research. sigh. hopefully the group members wont be angry with me.

the relatives from brunei just went back home yesterday after a 10-day stay in singapore. we dont see them much. but its a total crack up when we do. Cik Ara is a twin of Wak Ila which is cool i think. they look like clones. haha. but wak ila is more strict and doesnt really have a sense of humor. Cik ara loves to laugh and she's really bubbly despite living in boring and backward brunei. actually cik ara has a similar personality as Cik Ana who's also really bubbly and loves to laugh. cik zain who is cik ara's husband is a really boring guy, soft spoken and a loner. lol. i'm fucking bad. oh well. their daughter is ok i guess. we're both really shy people so we dont talk much to each other. but when janna is added into the conversation, everything is ok. haha. oh janna is cik ana's daughter. haha. oh well i hope they come back soon so we can go for more picnics! haha.

^^ those are pictures of the psp game me and my bros are into right now. its called monster hunter freedom 2. its a cool game. you guys should try it some time.

anyways,this is such a sweet poem. have a read. so i'll end here for tonight. i think i kinda managed to dump some information into an email and sent it to the leader. lol. i hope it suffices.

TO MY CHILD

Just for this morning,

I am going to smile

when I see your face

and laugh

when I feel like crying.

Just for this morning,

I will let you choose what you want to wear,

and smile and say how perfect it is.

Just for this morning,

I am going to step over the laundry

and pick you up and take you to

the park to play.

Just for this morning,

I will leave the dishes in the sink,

and let you teach me how to put

that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon,

I will unplug the telephone

and keep the computer off, and sit with

you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon,

I will not yell once,

not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck,

and I will buy you one

if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon,

I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up,

or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon,

I will let you help me bake cookies,

and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon,

I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening,

I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born

and how much I love you.

Just for this evening,

I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late

while we sit on the porch

and count all the stars.

Just for this evening,

I will snuggle beside you for hours,

and miss my favourite TV shows.

Just for this evening

when I run my finger through your hair as you pray,

I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children,

the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.

The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms

watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body

And when I kiss you goodnight

I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.

It is then,

that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day..............