[resigned to fate]

i just received an sms which was meant to go to a different person. it was for their partner. my soul hasnt even settled down yet and i get the "pleasure" of looking at that msg. way to get traumatised early in the freaking morning. sigh. i guess i am resigned to the fact that i'll never get ihminen out of my head or heart no matter how hard or long i try. its absurdly frustrating and exasperating but there is nothing i can do to make ihminen go away. i dont know why it is like this. nobody else has this effect on me. sigh. it has subsequently subsided during the past few months. Thank GOD.

anyways, it has been what.. 8 days since i passed my driving test. i haven't driven anything since then although i'm working on it. i'm kinda getting myself worried that i'll bang into someone or do something stupid while on the road. haha. oh well. i'm hoping that i'll get a car sooner than the promised 1 year. if i have to wait 1 year, i'll be hopelessly rusty by then. sian.

is it me or is july the month with the most birthdays. damn man.. i've got a least 9 friends and family members whose birthday falls in this month. thats like 2 birthdays a week! haha! and those are only the ones i remember. fuh. but then again.. its not like i have to celebrate it with them. i mean they're probably having fun celebrating it with other people. i guess a birthday wish will have to do. haha. presents.. ah thats the worst bit to get. i never know what to get my friends or family members. although if i'm at the receiving end, my motto is "quantity is better". haha.

anyways, kuantan was great. we didnt really continue with our routine of eating at the kampung restaurant, which was a disappointment to me, but it was alright. the taxi fares are going up, the taxi drivers are become more of an asshole, and its even harder to get a taxi even when we're in the city. its sick la the situation there. i guess the only attraction there for us is the hotel. although its not really what it used to be the first time we went there, we love the place. or at least everyone excluding my mom. haha. the whole relaxing atmosphere there is such a pull, its like a magnet. if not for the usual chaos which happens when we get there, i'd say its the perfect place for a spot of rest. when we got there, we didnt get a room straight away since check-in time is at 10.30 and we reached there at 6. gasp! so we slept at the lobby, then went for breakfast. then the brothers and dad went swimming while me, mom and bro slept at the pool chair. haha. it was great i tell you!! just thinking abt it now makes me want to go back to slp. haha.

ah well. i'm up this early because.. i'm pretty sure the teacher said if we did 2 experiments last week, we didnt have to come this week. since i forgot that he said that, i woke up early. and that was when i saw the god-forsaken sms and realise that i didnt have to go to school this early. CRAP i know. so i decided to go online for god knows what. i'm reading a book my Nora Roberts. its a trilogy. apparently i read part 2 before reading part 1 because i didnt know that it was a trilogy. haha. oh well. the book is awesome btw. its called Morrigan's Cross.

i guess i'll end here for today. my food is getting cold. its not good to keep food waiting. shit i feel like shitting! okok. i gotta go now. see you guys around or something. take care. have a nice week ahead.