[30 qns]

#1. Are you a chinese or english freako?
errr...? !

#2. If time is going to stop; what will you possibly do for that time?
clean myself, sit on sejadah, facing kiblat, and pray..

#3. Prefer a play pool or playground
a pool i guess.

#4. Do you usually gossip others; or being gossiped?
abit of both.

#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs?
depends

#6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets???
i dont really know.

#7. What makes you pissed off?
many things.

#8. How's your childhood?
wasted on studies..

#9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
no..

#10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, short orjust okay?
okay, most of the time.
#11. Would you judge people by their appearance?
haha. sometimes. i dont want to be labelled a hypocrite.

#12. What is attractive in your eyes?
many things? i cant place a finger on it.

#13. Do you like the day or night, explain why?
depends.

#14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own, or you have insatiable desires?
abit of both

#15. If your computer just hanged up; with a longlong document not being saved;how will you react?
curse and swear. try to restart the bloody com then see whether it can be recovered. if not curse and swear somemore.

#16. Do you believe in miracles?
i guess so.

#17. Do you often tend to forget about the past;or trying hard to do so?
the past always comes back to haunt me when i least expect it to.

#18. In your mind, what colours are out here?
what kind of question is this?

#19. Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them?
yeah. u wouldnt believe it.

#20. Describe yourself as in attitude.
normal. but then again people say i'm weird so who knows.

#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
actually yes. but i'm still here. haha.

#22. Give 3 advantages why you get to live.
1) to pray to GOD
2) family
3)friends

#23. What is your ambition in life?
havent thought that far.

#24. Do you believe in horoscope etc
i believe in Allah S.W.T.

#25. Describe music in your life.
it helps during demoralising times.

#27. What do you think blogging is about?
to each his own.

#28. What kind of style you are trying to get hold of?
my own?

#29. When you fail a test, how will you react?
curse myself for not studying hard enough and then hope that i'll do better next time.

#30. Pass this to 8 friends; for them to get it done.
i do not wish to trouble anybody during their holidays.

[holidays are here]

thank god its friday. yeah i know. but somehow it doesnt seem right to me. dont know why exactly. yesterday's presentation went crappy. the lecturer says that the presentation went quite smoothly but the QnA part was quite unconvincing. the guys were asking questions which were out of the issue that we're presenting for gods sake! our issue was abortion:pro-life/pro-choice. READ:WE WERE TALKING ABOUT NOT AGREEING ON ABORTION!!! well apparently the guys didnt understand that and kept asking questions about ADOPTION. the lecturer was probably eluded too cos he too asked us about adoption. *notice that i'm not actually blaming him. i wonder why? *rolls eyes*. so in the end we couldn't answer most of the questions. totally demoralising. i was really pissed off by the way the questions were posed to my group so i took revenge on the next group. i was asking so many questions. i cant take it sia. i kept asking until the lecturer,whose name is kenneth ong keng wee(finally i tell u i know), said can u all not get to personal over this. haha. that was great. it felt good man. after all the nervous shit i went through i at least deserve to feel triumphant. i can seriously tell u that i listened to khyalan by black dog bone in the toilet while i was shitting to actually calm my nerves. it was that bad.
after that i met fazli and liyana at fc3 and we headed to the dover mrt station. there i saw kenneth ong or should i say mr ong(god that name reminds me of sec sch principle) and he doesnt look happy. sigh. it somehow made me feel bad. i dont know why though. i was worried. i'm still worrying about till this very second. i dont feel that its the right time for a holiday cos i dont know why he's probably upset. i'm not as happy as i should be. damn it all. i still have a crush on him. wtf. its supposed to wear off. fuck this is difficult. i cant believe it. i will actually miss going back to school for the next 3 weeks just cos i wont be able to see him. shit. ok going on with the story,he apparently lives in pasir ris and he claims its near to PRCS! O.O!!! haha! anyways,i had to have promised liyana and fazli that i'd follow them to vivo city on that bloody day. i made the decision on the day before. never did i expect that i would have had the chance to maybe go home with him(fat chance! but who cares!). hahah. damn i sound psychotic. so u can say i wasnt in the mood to go around a mall that is new and has a spectacular view even when it was raining. i hurried them home. haha. sorry guys. u know i've been thinking about what anisah tagged awhile back. she tagged that theres a possibility that he's been reading my blog and i happen to be gushing about him in here like a psychotic maniac. somehow i dont think that he would though we had to comment on an article on a blog and to post that comment we needed to log in to our respective accounts and apparently people can see our profiles from there and then get the links to our blogs. disturbing as hell sia. well if he has been reading my blog i have but one thing to say to him. I AM TERRIBLY SORRY MR ONG/KENNETH. I HAD A CRUSH ON YOU AND I'M STILL CRUSHING ON YOU. I'LL LET YOU ALL KNOW WHEN THE CRUSH HAS WORN OFF. till then,this is driving me absolutely nuts. to think that i would probably have him popping up in my thoughts at anytime of the day and also during when i'm supposed to be on a holiday and enjoying myself is really alarming.
eh u know i didnt realise that siti nurhaliza sang the song aku cinta padamu. wait i didnt even know the song was called as such until my friend ,who i think is actually obsessed with siti but would not admit to it,told me. so now i dug up the vcd of siti nurhaliza which my mom got since i dont know when and watching the part where she sings it. somehow i think its too pitchy for my liking but the song is absolutely divine. heres the lyrics to the song:
AKU CINTA PADAMU-SITI NURHALIZA
Andainya engkau ku miliki
Terdahulu sebelumnya
Andai ku curah rasa hati
Mungkin kini ku tenang di samping mu
Belum puas ku menikmati
Kesan kasih sayang kau terpaksa pergi
Ingin ku terus dicintai
Walau bisikanmu azimat berduri
( 1 )Bila cinta berbungaJadi airmata di jariku
( 2 )Betapa ku cinta pada mu
Katakanlah kau cinta padaku
Sematkanlah ku di hati mu
Walau di mana berada
Ingat ku dalam doa mu
Hiasilah hati
Dengan cinta suci
Selamanya
( ulang 1, 2 )
( 3 )
Gemerlapkan jiwa
Semikanlah cinta
Semoga kau dan aku
Akhirnya bersama
Akukan menunggu
Walaupun seribu tahun lagi
( ulang 3, 2, 3 )

with that i end this entry. thank you for reading. please feel free to tag. take care. happy holidays!

[new]

went to watch Deja Vu last saturday with my family. we got 6 free movie tickets. so cool i know. the movie was awesome. abit sick in the mind but awesome. haha. damn cool la. anyways,dad bought me levis jeans and vans shoes. happy sia. haha. this is my first ever levis jeans. haha. and i've always wanted vans shoes. its just that last time my cousins didnt want me to buy vans and bought adidas instead. i was upset that time but i'm happy now. haha. for now at least.
tmr is D DAY for me. thursday. sheesh. got schematic test in the morning. then afternoon got IDEAs presentation and then CRS presentation back to back. wah can die sia. i think the crs ppts are done. i'm worried abt the IDEAs though. we havent done anything satisfactory. no thanks to that bloody kid. sheesh. the teacher sure angry sia. i think he might not like us anymore. gasp! thats bad.
been super stressed lately. due to all the projects. i seriously need a time-out and i need to detoxify myself. everytime i think of projects i'll feel nauseous. dont feel like eating much nowadays. sigh. i guess thats a good thing. i'll be able to lose weight then. haha.
ok i've got nothing else to write abt. wish me luck for tmr! i will need it badly. thanks! take care.

[creepy]

as i mentioned yesterday abt the lecturer. okay this is super freaky. today lesson was at 3 as usual. had 4 hours break cos IDEAs was apparently canceled. not that thats a bad thing. who doesnt love that their class is cancelled huh. haha. anyways,i forgot to mention that this lecturer apparently always looks at my direction or rather at me during lesson time. which i find disarming. he is soft spoken and has luscious lips. wahaha. fuck i sound like a fanatic. eee! ok getting on. today was presentation day for some groups. thank god mine is next week. and we havent even done anything yet!! damn. so he was sitting on a seat thats a row infront of mine which is okay. i was freaking cold and nervous i was almost choking. so anyways after the first group presented and everyone has taken a shot at asking questions(read:bombarding) to the group-this was done to accumulate marks not purely out of choice,the lecturer suddenly came around and sat next to me. i was going WTF?! but kept cool. haha. i might just die cos of all the things i keep inside. apparently he wanted to ask me the name of my classmate(raymond lum yun hoe) . like what the hell i know. couldnt he just ask raymond himself. haha. before i get to spit out raymond's name,raymond came bounding towards us like the kaypo kid he is. haha. lucky for me. after that the lecturer moved off. haha. the presentation continued and more bombarding of questions. the lecturer kept glancing back though. eee. but abit nice to know that someone actually wants a second glance of me. haha. yes i am deprived of attention. he is utterly hot though. no denying that. the thought of him makes me nervous and when i try to drown it,my stomach will have this weird feeling and i will feel like shitting. sigh.
oh but thats not the end of the drama which enfolded today. a group member who conveniently missed today's lessons is on a warpath cos she thinks that we do not know how to compromise when actually the problem lies in her. this has happened before. i think i posted something similar previously a few months ago. and i can safely tell u,when another group member called twice to tell me abt this on the mrt nonetheless ,i have never in my life been angry till my heart and head is thumping i cant breathe and lost my apetite. i guess lust and anger doesnt mix well huh. bleah. i didnt know what made me do it but i actually told all this to my mom. i'm usually apprehensive abt letting my mom know abt what happens in my life. she got wound up and told me that girl is a bitch and that i should just continue what i'm supposed to do. wow. that went well. haha. now i'm having something nagging at me at the back of my head. crap.
my xena the warrior princess dvds have yet to arrive. i found out that due to the way it was shipped,it will take around 4-6 weeks to actually reach here. thats disappointing. hah. i'm still looking forward to it though. hmm. this adds to the stress and anger. and to some extent lust. wahaha. i realise i'm using the word lust very loosely. maybe i've been reading too many love novels with sexual content for my own good. sigh.
ok enough of my ranting for today. it feels good to let out abit of everything here. listening to marcell's jangan pernah berubah. smooth man. so relaxing and sad and sweet at the same time. so i hope u guys have a good weekend. i know i'll have a hell of a weekend thats for sure. take care and good night.

[grr]

well its been awhile huh. this blogger is giving me problems sia. sotling. anyways,if any of u guys are readers,u know those who read books,u might want to take a look(read) at audrey howard's books. specifically rivers of the heart. its an awesome book to me at least. but please do read it. haha.

school has been totally draining. i mean it this time. its only my first year and i'm loaded with projects up to my ears. damn man. i hate projects,i hate group works,i hate presentations,i hate it all. shit sia. i think tmr i gotta hand in the IDEA ppts. dont even know if we've done it yet also. siao man. think i'm gonna die soon. CRS sucks too. project again. what discussion cafe shit. doing abt suicide case in mrt tracks. i think i might just turn suicidal myself if this goes on. haha. as if. the bloody teacher isn't helping either. well not really not helping la. he does help. but he's fucking hot la sia. images of his freaking face are like swimming in my head. not to mention he's well built and cute at the same time. going to have to see him tmr for CRS. shit hole. bleah. i think its the hormones again. sheesh. i hate having mensus. except the part i get to skip any religious commitments. haha. ok shit i'm sinful. STOP THINKING ABT HIM MAN UR GOING NUTS! raaa...

anyways,last night i had a freaky dream abt jannah. i remember i was drifting around at the mrt station and i saw her talking to her friend. i walked past them and took the escalator up. then suddenly she was there and said hi to me. i was shell-shocked. she started rambling stuff then asked me to go to the movies tmr morning. then she's gone. freaky sia. i know. bleah. not enough slp just now. late night. slept on the train. i think tonights gonna be a long night too. got animes to watch. inuyasha and get backers babyy!! super fun.

holiday is coming in 2 weeks time. going off to bali on the 18th till 23rd i think. 17 people going. crazy. hope it'll turn out okay. my mom went through alot of trouble and probably collected alot of bills just arranging for the accomodations. usually we dont have to do this cos dad is working for hyatt which means we get a free room at hyatt hotel. but this time we're going with others so we wanna stay together and since hyatt is a 6 star hotel,its too expensive for the others. we have to arrange to accomodate in another hotel. i heard we're staying in a loft,whatever that is.

eh i want to play tai ti la. can anybody teach me how to play?! please?! pretty please with strawberry and cream on top? haha. i wanna learn all those combos;royal flush,3 of a kind etc.
i've tried playing it twice and always end up losing big time. luckily i cant gamble(though its tempting). i'll be losing alot of money then. haha.

ok i'll end here for today. listening to air supply's goodbye. super sad sia. haha. nice song. u guys shud listen to it. of course since i'm into oldies this song is an oldies song. haha. ok bye,good night,take care.