[happy teachers day]

haha! just a few months back i was practically screaming my head off that i would sure as hell go back to prcs for teachers day and now i'm here at home sitting and drinking plain water typing this entry. nope i didnt go to prcs. i was going to but since the people i asked weren't going so whats the point. and they also highlighted an important fact-the awesome teachers are all gone. so yeah another reason for me not to go. well actually i'm just lazy. so what the hell.

friendster is nuts i think. i went to click on a friend's profile and then clicked on her friend's profile and the link came out as alotavagina.com/friendster wtf siak. haha! ok not funny. then i remembered that friendster got alot of virus so i quickly log out. haha. loser sia.

anyways,i go off now ah eh. i need to stuff myself with food now cos laila says eating alot in the morning wont affect my weight. but then again now is not exactly morning anymore. hahaha! oh what the hell. lets just try. the only problem now is to find food. i'm not about to eat any rice cos that will surely make me fat. oh god help me. i'm obssessed with losing weight. but now its ok since i'm not slim or stick-like. haha! oh shit i cant eat after 1800 hours which gives me approximately 4 hours left. damn it! i need to wake up earlier next time. damn anyways to all teachers and especially to those who have taught me something or the other,

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

[hot]

i think he looks freaking hot in this pic. bleah. *mumbles to myself* i'm not infatuated with him anymore. i'm not infatuated with him anymore. wargh! anyways,this was from the demo at UWCSEA. a long time ago probably.

getting on,i might be going to orchard road,specifically borders,on saturday for the public roda. lol. i'm going to pull some of the SP capoeira kids along. haha. i hope it wont rain. speaking of SP capoeira,our training starts on the 5th of september. we have 3 more trainings which is equivalent to 6 hours of training time. initially it was arranged to be on 5th and then on 12th. but since claud is going to japan and then australia for their respective batizados we're having training on the 5th for 4 HOURS!!! omg! thats like a long time ah. after like 3 weeks of no training then suddenly kena 4 hours. confirm pengsan. lol. and then not to mention puasa coming. sigh. oh and i still got to take the btt retest. bleah. oh and then there wont be anymore trainings until sch reopen which is 1 month later. its good in a way since its fasting period but then again....i miss training. lol. and the batizado and workshops coming on october. wargh! couldnt be at a worst time.

sian. i'm hooked on the songs glory of love by peter cetera and passera by il divo. keep listening and trying to memorise the lyrics since i've got nothing else to do. lol. i'm actually trying to lose weight. stupid tummy wont go away. irritating. hais. i've been wasting electricity alot this month. poor dad has to pay so much. i want to go play pool or badminton or capoeira but nobody wants to play with me and its been raining every afternoon. sucks sia. and i cant eat cos then i'll get fat. bleah.

anyways,i'll update soon. i've got nothing else to say right now. haha! happy holidays everyone! dont be shy to ask me out some time. hahaha! tchau. take care.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHAYU!!!

Grupo Bantus Capoeira (Singapore) is having her 2nd Batizado this coming October! Its a fun-filled and significant event where newbies (Kids & Adults) are being 'baptised' (not in the religious sense) and become full-fledged Capoeiristas. During the ceremony, newbies will play with their fellow instructors or our Mestre (Master) and then awarded their first cord, not before they get an unforgettable game with whoever is 'baptising' them. For the rest, there may be a Trocar de Cordao, which means change of cord (promote to next level). View http://bantusmalaysia.multiply.com/ for Batizado 2006 in Brazil.
Every Batizado will precede with a week of workshops and this year we will have our fellow instructors from KL, Australia, Netherlands and Brasil to conduct the workshops! The ceremony will be on the 2nd weekend Oct, place not confirmed yet. So my frens, do come and have a look cos it'll end with a blast, Samba and all!
Dates: Sun 14 Oct 2007.
Venue: tbc (come back for updates)
Time: 10am-1pm.

lol i kop this from kai meng's multiply site. hahaha! loser sia me. anyways sunday 14th october is the 2nd day of hari raya!!! WTF?!

[just some stuff]

HAHAHAHA! as u guys might know,i'm a nutcase. haha! usually i do researches on my crushes no matter who they are. so guess what?! i did a research on claudinho...which took a freaking long time mind you. and finally i found some good stuff. i realised he doesnt actually look good in pictures. lol! maybe he doesnt even look good in real life who knows i cant remember. anyways i found his picture. i mean like passport kinda picture with him wearing a suit for god knows what. and he really really doesnt look good plus he probably had a really bad hair day that day. haha! but i cant put the pic in cos i cant save it inside the com. its a file in pdf format. oh well. i'll just put the link here. lol.
http://www.uwcsea.edu.sg/cep/PDF%20files/Capoeira.pdf

as stated there his real name is Claudio Soares de Morais. whoa i know. haha! and i found out another thing which is his age. but the freaking website says the article is no longer in the archive. fuckers. and it was only posted on the 8th of august. fucked up. anyways,the website says that he's 25(!!!!). i took the liberty to check this information with edwin. lol. systematically hidden within the question "is claudinho a mestre yet?" haha! wtf. edwin confirms that claud( i like claud better than claudio) is only 26 this year and no he's not yet a mestre(which i already know). so yeah as u can imagine i was freaking high the moment i found that out. i dont even know why la. i thought he was 30 actually. he looks 30 even edwin agrees! haha! ok fine.

anyways,i think i should go off now. tmr's a very difficult paper! bye and take care.

[songs]

Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel
[The Closer I Get To You-Roberta Flack and Donny Hathaway]

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never
[Never Again-Kelly Clarkson]

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I used to reach for you whenI got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
Yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
[Used To-Chris Daughtry]

[picture]

picture from bantus singapore.

the guy on the stool is claudinho when he shaved his head which was quite some time ago i think since now he has a full head of hair. i think he looks really good from this angle. haha! the middle kid is cute i think. lol. i think i think too much. lol. bleah i gotta learn how to do a proper
aú. bye. take care.

[public roda]

ok picture posted. now on with the entry.

yesterday i mixed up the actual dates to my btt retest. lol. apparently i was 1 month early. i'm always embarrassing myself there. just my luck. so yeah i had planned on going to the public roda at orchard road after the btt. so since there was no btt i went straight there. i didnt realise i was early for it until i looked at my watch. but nvm my friend told me abt a video rental store in far east plaza which sells martial arts videos. so i went and take a look. bought 2 capoeira vcds and 1 muay thai vcd. $48 in all. i'm not good at bargaining. lol. anyways i heard that the argola capoeira team have weekly rodas at orchard too,infront of takashimaya i think,so i went to find them. didnt have much luck but i sat down and really saw orchard road for the first time. i saw many shutterbugs and weird groups of people holding up signs like "FREE HUGS". anyways,it was almost 3.30pm and was choking from all the cigarette smoke so i went to borders(the bantus team has rodas there).

ok i am seriously a shy person. like freaking shy. i even admit running away from a friend just because she makes me nervous. but i'm not giving names. anyway,i went there and i saw them gathered there so i got nervous. i went into borders and took a look around. that place is like a library which sells books. i think its got everything. probably the best book store around in my opinion. found some interesting stuff there like romance books and martial arts books which i'm going to get someday. so anyways i tried finding a place to watch the bantus team without being noticed. i found one and its really weird. its like at a corner of the building. my description is crap. but u gotta see it urself to know it. so anyways i stood there watching them play. it was fun. the seniors are really really good. i wouldnt dream of going against them anytime soon. i saw claudinho of course. he looked really happy when he's playing. especially when he managed to take a person down ( which was often). wouldnt dream of going against him either. anyways while up there,2 girls came to the place and eventhough they tried to hide it were disappointed that i was there. so after plucking up enough courage i left the place and went down to see it up close.

there were loads of people gathered there just to see the roda. which i think is cool. u dont see many interesting things around nowadays. i saw some of the sp capoeira mates and went to them. talked abit and then watched the performance. super exhilirating. the girls were great the guys were awesome. mann..i'm jealous. claudinho was there singing his lungs out. and when he finally saw me he asked to clap and join in the circle but i didnt want to. i needed to go off soon to meet my parents. i took a crappy video which i just uploaded on youtube. lol. then he came over (my heart was pumping like mad ah) and asked how i was. he shook my hand and before i could answer was pulling me towards the roda. i stopped him(reluctantly of course. his hand was so comforting,eventhough he must have touched the floor so many times and it was sweaty too, i didnt want to let go). he said "just stand and clap!" i said no i need to meet my mother. i couldnt think straight. then he closed one eye, pointed a finger at me and gave me a "you're lying" look which was abso-fucking-lutely adorable i was speechless. then i said "really!" and he just walked towards the other sp capoeira mates and made them join. i sorta felt bad but relieved at the same time. i kept looking at my watch and left reluctantly again. bleah.

as u can imagine i was feeling high. haha! so i went down the escalators to the mrt station and as u know there are 2 sets of escalators. i took the long way down because i realised that nobody was taking that one. i almost took another escalator when i realised that its not moving and that there were loads of people gathered at the bottom of it. so i took the stairs and i found out why. i saw a chinese girl with a pink get-up with her hand stuck inside a hole in the escalator. u know the whole where the handrest goes in. weird but i was feeling to high to care. i just took the mrt home and was hitting my head on the mrt walls recalling what just happened to me.

i'm still recoiling from the shock right now. i miss him already. i hope he doesnt hate me but he probably does now. bleah. i gotta go now. exams coming and i havnt even studied. damn it all. bye and take care.

[sorethroat]

hey all. let's start off with a picture.

nice eh. lol.

anyways,getting on....

capoeira training has been fine i guess. aches here and there but its getting lesser with each training. i think i'm actually losing weight. haha! oh and there's something else....*looks around suspiciously*i think none of my training mates are here to read my blog. lol. wth am i saying my friends dont even read my blog. oh well whatever la eh. anyways,the thing us...*blushes like crazy* i have a crush on my instructor. *looks away embarrassed* uhm. i think his name is claud and his capoeira name is claudinho which means little claud. cute eh. ok fine i'm getting sick. ITS THOSE DARN HORMONES I TELL YOU!!! bleah. going along with his description.. he's brazilian around 30 years old and probably attached. tanned,only abit taller than me. short afro hair. stubble(ok i like guys with facial hair),thin lips and has a tummy. lol. from what i can see he has 2 tattoos one of the brazilian flag(patriotic) and another of a berimbau(instrument). he can't really speak english that well but heck he's cute. and yesterday another one of my capoeira mates(who's a guy) got a capoeira name. i dont really know what it is in portugese but in english it means pacifier which to me is obvious why though others dont see the humour in tit i mean it. lol. so yeah since he hasnt come up with a nickname for me he tried to think of one. and he was looking at me up and down which made me nervous obviously and i tried to act cool(turned out ah lian-like unfortunately). anyways,he looked at me with one eye closed and i swear i could have kissed him right there. he was so fucking cute!!!! bleah. i dont know how i managed to keep cool. anyways,he couldnt think of one and he said "slowly. we find nice name for you!" and the way he said it was like so sincere and enthusiastic and somehow felt warm,i believed him(eventhough laila's professor said she needed a more classy name and ended up with eskimo which i dont think is classy lol). oh and we have this sorta "unique" handshake for bantus capoeiristas before and after training as a greeting i suppose. its starts with sliding our hands together then clench it and sorta bang it with each others fist then its like the normal handshake(this part i love). anyways,i always look forward when he shakes my hand. his handshake is so firm u know like someone confident and strong whom u feel u can trust. it gives me tingles everytime! bleah. so far its been 3 weeks since we've been doing this handshake and its cool. last week was the second time and when he shook my hand before training and said hi. after training he teased me and the other girl and even teased us during the handshake. cute la that guy. and this week i was the only girl there cos the other girl didnt want to come which i must admit pissed me off. anyways,we did the handshake and he said hi and asked how i was while doing that. i said ok and he exclaimed "why ok?! tomorrow is holiday!" haha! i couldnt answer that there's going to be exams next week because i cleaned forgot. lol i'm hopeless. this week surprisingly i didnt kena much criticising for my mistakes. only that "stretch your legs more!" with that cute face. sigh. and then after training he almost walked past me(i was feeling disappointed!!!) but turned back(i was freaking happy!!) and did the handshake with us. then he said bye to me and i dont know if it was me but the last part of the handshake lasted longer than usual. its like he held on to my hand longer and naturally i did the same. i like his grip. so comforting,i feel safe. lol. then he went off to eat with edwin at fc4 apparently(i stalked them lol). SIGH!

and now i'm sick! i mean really sick with running nose and really bad sorethroat. bleah sucks. so the next 2 weeks will be exams week and there'll be no training until after that. i'm missing him already. shit. after exams is the holidays! which means trainings will be during the holidays. i dont know how it'll turn out during the fasting month though. i'm sure it'll be freaking tough on us muslims. anyways, batizado(initiation or baptism into capoeira) is coming up this october. edwin warned us its going to expensive and all and said if we can't afford it dont go. we'll be getting our first cordao if we go. which determines our rank. this event is held once a year and we'll get a new cordao if we are good enough. ah i dont know whether want to go ah i think i'm not good enough. maybe i'll go next year or what.

bleah anyways, i gtg now eh. bye and take care.

[heya]

i find that this picture is super nice. the background so wide and peaceful. the weather so nice. sigh. too bad i'll never find this kind of place in singapore. oh well. hello blistered and busted feet. thanks god for shoes. haha. i'm babbling nonsense.