[BRING DR PRESTON BURKE BACK!]
i'm a wreck. i am a wreck. i didn't sleep for 24 hours yesterday. and on top of that i've been crying for the past few weeks. it is unlike me, i know. but it is something i cannot avoid. it is something i don't want to avoid. it is something i want to embrace. this wasn't the fault of anyone but myself. i put this upon myself and i am grateful for it. i am grateful to have found this source that evokes so many feelings within me, that i am drowning in feelings right now. this source is Grey's Anatomy.
i know you may all scoff and laugh at me right now. but i don't care. this show is whats been keeping me together for the past few months. i knew it was going to be good before i watched it but i never expected it to be better than good. the show has surpassed my expectations. well maybe only until season 3. the end of season 3 was something i was looking forward to but also dreaded it with every essence of my soul. it was the last season/episode that Dr Preston Burke is going to be in. Because apparently the actor, Isaiah Washington, said faggot when he got into an argument with Patrick Dempsey. The key words here Patrick Dempsey. He was accused of calling T.R. Knight, who later revealed that he is gay, a faggot when T.R. wasn't even there when they had the argument. And for that he has been fired from the show eventhough he has apologized to everyone involved and even gone through anger managements workshops to rectify himself. I find it a fucking waste and a big loss to the show. As all viewers may know, the show is nothing without him. Season 4 is already too boring to watch. The only one worth watching is Cristina Yang. I am now trying to see whether i can help anyone convince the network to re-hire him on the show. The ratings for the show has been decreasing and the producers really need to save it. I think that since Isaiah has already apologized so many times and the show is hitting a plateau, getting him back would really boost the ratings and also add some spice to the relationship between Cristina and Owen. The scenario could be that Jane Burke or Donald Burke is having a heart-attack and is admitted to Seattle Grace Hospital. Surely, Preston would come running.
He is... for a lack of a better word, perfect. well as perfect as a man can be. He and Cristina has really captured my attention from the very beginning. I love their characters and i am obsessed about their relationship. I know the show is supposed to center around Meredith Grey but frankly i don't give a shit about any of her relationships. The only thing that keeps me watching the show is Burke and Yang. And i love them. Their relationship is something i really want for myself and since i don't have that right now and i don't know if i'll ever have that, it is really captivating for me to see that being played out. The actors are brilliant to say the least. Burke is the sexiest cardiothoracic surgeon ever and Yang is so sadistic and flippant. I love their dynamic. I love their commitment. And last night or should i say morning, i watched the final episode of season 3. I watched Burke have his bachelor night. I watched as he was forced to go to surgery because there was an accident. I watched him try out his vows with Addison and gang. I cried as i watched him utter every perfect word with confidence and passion. I watched him waiting for her at the top of the altar. I watched Cristina panic because she scrubbed off the vows written on her hand. I watched Burke come down the aisle to get to her. I watched the wedding go down the drain. I watched my Burke leave Cristina, the love of his life, at the altar because he doesn't want to keep changing her. I saw the relationship that i have wished for crumble before my eyes. I watched Cristina broke down when she came home to find his belongings gone. I broke down with her and couldn't watch anymore.
Now everytime i think of them, i cry. I would watch it all over again just to see their relationship blossom. i would watch it again and again and again and i will not get sick of it. I know you guys will think i'm a pathetic and sick person. An absurd person who should be ignored everytime i mention something about this. I am a human too. I need someone to confide in. But the people i hold in high esteem choose to leave me in my time of need. I am not doing too good and i just need some comforting. i just need a hug and a listening ear. i would not ask for anything more. i have been putting up with my friends's nonsense for so long. i listen to them talk to me about their pathetic love lives and i listen to them talk their imaginary boyfriends. i listen and i laugh with them and i go along with them because i know that will make them feel better. Because i think thats what friends would do for each other. And now when i am in the same situation, what do i get in return? unreplied smses, insults and indifference? I expected more. Now i don't expect anything anymore. Fine. I'll keep everything to myself from now on. You won't hear a thing from me from now on. But don't ever expect me to be the friend i used to be. Don't expect me to listen to your pathetic problems and shit because I don't care anymore.
Anyways, I'd like to take this oppurtunity to post a video of my Burke trying out his very perfect vows with Addison in the OR. A word of caution. Please have tissues ready.
"Cristina, I could promise to hold you and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say "till death do us part". But i won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples. The ones full of hope. And i do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. And i know i am a heart man.Ii take them apart. I put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this i am sure: you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, MY heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, i promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you... me."
-Preston Burke
i know you may all scoff and laugh at me right now. but i don't care. this show is whats been keeping me together for the past few months. i knew it was going to be good before i watched it but i never expected it to be better than good. the show has surpassed my expectations. well maybe only until season 3. the end of season 3 was something i was looking forward to but also dreaded it with every essence of my soul. it was the last season/episode that Dr Preston Burke is going to be in. Because apparently the actor, Isaiah Washington, said faggot when he got into an argument with Patrick Dempsey. The key words here Patrick Dempsey. He was accused of calling T.R. Knight, who later revealed that he is gay, a faggot when T.R. wasn't even there when they had the argument. And for that he has been fired from the show eventhough he has apologized to everyone involved and even gone through anger managements workshops to rectify himself. I find it a fucking waste and a big loss to the show. As all viewers may know, the show is nothing without him. Season 4 is already too boring to watch. The only one worth watching is Cristina Yang. I am now trying to see whether i can help anyone convince the network to re-hire him on the show. The ratings for the show has been decreasing and the producers really need to save it. I think that since Isaiah has already apologized so many times and the show is hitting a plateau, getting him back would really boost the ratings and also add some spice to the relationship between Cristina and Owen. The scenario could be that Jane Burke or Donald Burke is having a heart-attack and is admitted to Seattle Grace Hospital. Surely, Preston would come running.
He is... for a lack of a better word, perfect. well as perfect as a man can be. He and Cristina has really captured my attention from the very beginning. I love their characters and i am obsessed about their relationship. I know the show is supposed to center around Meredith Grey but frankly i don't give a shit about any of her relationships. The only thing that keeps me watching the show is Burke and Yang. And i love them. Their relationship is something i really want for myself and since i don't have that right now and i don't know if i'll ever have that, it is really captivating for me to see that being played out. The actors are brilliant to say the least. Burke is the sexiest cardiothoracic surgeon ever and Yang is so sadistic and flippant. I love their dynamic. I love their commitment. And last night or should i say morning, i watched the final episode of season 3. I watched Burke have his bachelor night. I watched as he was forced to go to surgery because there was an accident. I watched him try out his vows with Addison and gang. I cried as i watched him utter every perfect word with confidence and passion. I watched him waiting for her at the top of the altar. I watched Cristina panic because she scrubbed off the vows written on her hand. I watched Burke come down the aisle to get to her. I watched the wedding go down the drain. I watched my Burke leave Cristina, the love of his life, at the altar because he doesn't want to keep changing her. I saw the relationship that i have wished for crumble before my eyes. I watched Cristina broke down when she came home to find his belongings gone. I broke down with her and couldn't watch anymore.
Now everytime i think of them, i cry. I would watch it all over again just to see their relationship blossom. i would watch it again and again and again and i will not get sick of it. I know you guys will think i'm a pathetic and sick person. An absurd person who should be ignored everytime i mention something about this. I am a human too. I need someone to confide in. But the people i hold in high esteem choose to leave me in my time of need. I am not doing too good and i just need some comforting. i just need a hug and a listening ear. i would not ask for anything more. i have been putting up with my friends's nonsense for so long. i listen to them talk to me about their pathetic love lives and i listen to them talk their imaginary boyfriends. i listen and i laugh with them and i go along with them because i know that will make them feel better. Because i think thats what friends would do for each other. And now when i am in the same situation, what do i get in return? unreplied smses, insults and indifference? I expected more. Now i don't expect anything anymore. Fine. I'll keep everything to myself from now on. You won't hear a thing from me from now on. But don't ever expect me to be the friend i used to be. Don't expect me to listen to your pathetic problems and shit because I don't care anymore.
Anyways, I'd like to take this oppurtunity to post a video of my Burke trying out his very perfect vows with Addison in the OR. A word of caution. Please have tissues ready.
"Cristina, I could promise to hold you and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say "till death do us part". But i won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples. The ones full of hope. And i do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. And i know i am a heart man.Ii take them apart. I put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this i am sure: you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, MY heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, i promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you... me."
-Preston Burke
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