[awkward]
apparently i couldn't post through itouch so i had to on my laptop to type this post. you know, every time i decide to post my thoughts here, things don't turn out too good the next day. since you won't be at work tomorrow, i might as well type today. work's gonna suck anyways since you're not gonna be there.
okay so yesterday as i mentioned you went for a walk with sarah. apparently you asked her what was the relationship between me and sarah. quite interested eh? lol. sarah spilled about how i'm always saying i'm tired and you took pity over me, at least from what i heard. i haven't gotten the full story yet cos sarah and i haven't had a proper talk. but today you didn't give me any job to do. freaking weird since there's always something that you need me to do. why did you have to do that? you made things so awkward when everything was going fine the day before. sigh. you actually HESITATED about asking me to file passports! WHY?! omg. have i not always followed your instructions without complains? please do not do this anymore! i'm begging you. i love work. as in i love having something to do. don't make me not do anything just cos.. i don't know. its awfully sweet of you and you're probably doing this cos sarah is your friend but PLEASE! you even asked azri "where's shikin ah?" the moment you arrived at work and entered the tracer room. you were worried that I went outside. grrr. why are you making things so hard for me? seriously. LIMERENCE!
so yeah thanks to this, i had such an awkward day. we didn't speak to each other at all. total 180 degrees turn from yesterday. hated it. but this always happens. what with your bipolar-ness. and my revengefulness when you do the whole ignoring thing. sigh. today was uneventful. tomorrow is going to be a long day. kiosk in the morning. sigh. hopefully i won't get another headache, the kiosk will all be working and my eye won't go blind on me. azri is going to be a star as always such a nice guy. plus very easy to ask help from. I NEED TO GET MORE INFO ON WHAT YOU SAID TO SARAH YESTERDAY! ITCHING LIKE HELL!
anyway, when we didn't speak just now, i actually didn't care ah. i don't know why. its like i got too tired of hoping. 3 months is a long time of trying and waiting. i think i've had enough. but i love it when you try ah. i get all smiley and shit but if you don't talk to me, i just won't talk to you. *shrugs* i'm easy. or difficult. depends on how you look at it.
oh one of the highlights of today was when Angela said that i do runner very fast. i was so proud of myself then. cos some bitch used to say that i run very slow. that brightened up my otherwise dull day. another highlight is when you were leaving for school for soccer training (after horridly shifting the A side and filing halfway, much to bernice's and my annoyance) and you actually took the time to say "bye guys. see you next week." and waved to all of us. i was tired from tracing and i couldn't believe you were personally waving to each one of us so i stared at you for a good 2 seconds before waving back. the best part was you stared back, looked me in the eye and waved at me again. that got me smiling all the way home. as always. its the smallest things that make me happy. the whole day can be shitty as hell but if it ended like that, i'd still consider it a good day.
despite being full of resentment towards the way you treated me at work, the moment you left, i missed you. your absence was felt immediately and my heart missed the sight of you, your voice and your smell. i remember tweeting "At this moment knowing I won't see you till monday, I wish I could stop hearing your voice and smelling you everywhere I go. Sigh." just this evening. because i was hearing your voice and smelling you everywhere. i swear i was going a little insane. oh by the way, sarah doesn't know i have a thing for you. whenever we talk about you, i'd act nonchalant and cool but inside i'd be dying to know, dying from jealousy or beaming with pride. amalina might notice though from the increasing frequency of our discussions about you. shall continue with my facade.
okay its almost 2am here and i have to wake up in 2.5hrs time for sahur and then probably won't sleep till its time to go to work. shit. anyways, i finally got around to downloading a twitter app for my laptop. its cool. i get how it works.. so far that is. oh and you know i've been thinking of what to get and what to write for people when i quit, which is still a long way to go. lol. i just like thinking ahead. cannot meh? lol. OKOK i need sleep.
Good night or morning people. Have a great day ahead. Happy fasting. Enjoy the weekends, for those who actually have one. *waves*
PS: I can't wait for Seoul. Approximately 47 more days! Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey!
okay so yesterday as i mentioned you went for a walk with sarah. apparently you asked her what was the relationship between me and sarah. quite interested eh? lol. sarah spilled about how i'm always saying i'm tired and you took pity over me, at least from what i heard. i haven't gotten the full story yet cos sarah and i haven't had a proper talk. but today you didn't give me any job to do. freaking weird since there's always something that you need me to do. why did you have to do that? you made things so awkward when everything was going fine the day before. sigh. you actually HESITATED about asking me to file passports! WHY?! omg. have i not always followed your instructions without complains? please do not do this anymore! i'm begging you. i love work. as in i love having something to do. don't make me not do anything just cos.. i don't know. its awfully sweet of you and you're probably doing this cos sarah is your friend but PLEASE! you even asked azri "where's shikin ah?" the moment you arrived at work and entered the tracer room. you were worried that I went outside. grrr. why are you making things so hard for me? seriously. LIMERENCE!
so yeah thanks to this, i had such an awkward day. we didn't speak to each other at all. total 180 degrees turn from yesterday. hated it. but this always happens. what with your bipolar-ness. and my revengefulness when you do the whole ignoring thing. sigh. today was uneventful. tomorrow is going to be a long day. kiosk in the morning. sigh. hopefully i won't get another headache, the kiosk will all be working and my eye won't go blind on me. azri is going to be a star as always such a nice guy. plus very easy to ask help from. I NEED TO GET MORE INFO ON WHAT YOU SAID TO SARAH YESTERDAY! ITCHING LIKE HELL!
anyway, when we didn't speak just now, i actually didn't care ah. i don't know why. its like i got too tired of hoping. 3 months is a long time of trying and waiting. i think i've had enough. but i love it when you try ah. i get all smiley and shit but if you don't talk to me, i just won't talk to you. *shrugs* i'm easy. or difficult. depends on how you look at it.
oh one of the highlights of today was when Angela said that i do runner very fast. i was so proud of myself then. cos some bitch used to say that i run very slow. that brightened up my otherwise dull day. another highlight is when you were leaving for school for soccer training (after horridly shifting the A side and filing halfway, much to bernice's and my annoyance) and you actually took the time to say "bye guys. see you next week." and waved to all of us. i was tired from tracing and i couldn't believe you were personally waving to each one of us so i stared at you for a good 2 seconds before waving back. the best part was you stared back, looked me in the eye and waved at me again. that got me smiling all the way home. as always. its the smallest things that make me happy. the whole day can be shitty as hell but if it ended like that, i'd still consider it a good day.
despite being full of resentment towards the way you treated me at work, the moment you left, i missed you. your absence was felt immediately and my heart missed the sight of you, your voice and your smell. i remember tweeting "At this moment knowing I won't see you till monday, I wish I could stop hearing your voice and smelling you everywhere I go. Sigh." just this evening. because i was hearing your voice and smelling you everywhere. i swear i was going a little insane. oh by the way, sarah doesn't know i have a thing for you. whenever we talk about you, i'd act nonchalant and cool but inside i'd be dying to know, dying from jealousy or beaming with pride. amalina might notice though from the increasing frequency of our discussions about you. shall continue with my facade.
okay its almost 2am here and i have to wake up in 2.5hrs time for sahur and then probably won't sleep till its time to go to work. shit. anyways, i finally got around to downloading a twitter app for my laptop. its cool. i get how it works.. so far that is. oh and you know i've been thinking of what to get and what to write for people when i quit, which is still a long way to go. lol. i just like thinking ahead. cannot meh? lol. OKOK i need sleep.
Good night or morning people. Have a great day ahead. Happy fasting. Enjoy the weekends, for those who actually have one. *waves*
PS: I can't wait for Seoul. Approximately 47 more days! Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey!
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